This weekend; oh, this weekend. Things are slowly starting to take shape, though I was too tired to do much, beyond the usual; a walk down Warden to the mall, then back again past the Ontario Hydro fields where a kids' soccer tournament was taking place, tents everywhere and cars & trucks parked on the grass when the parking lot of the high school next door was full up; parents sitting in the shade. By the sidewalk on either side, crickets, milkweed and red clover. It was hot (where isn't it?) and breezy and this helped me relax a little...

...I just faxed the info the government wants for a temporary PR card; saw the ticket for the first time and oh, it is real, it is going to happen...right now I feel as if my physical body is here, and I am merely placating my needs on that level, but otherwise, I am already soaring above the Atlantic...the weather is against my being giddy, and I probably won't be until the last week, but for now, the pull is strong, overwhelming at times, and oddly enough because I am split, I can take the lousy weather and period pains and long line-ups and all the rest of it with an absent patience. This must be what true enlightenment is like; not that nothing bothers me, but it is all so small and inconsequential. I listen to the radio, I read, I sleep, I eat...it is all just varieties of waiting...

Oh, in case you were wondering, thanks to the two kind folks who said that they read me - I know there are others but they are probably busy or something, who knows; I know I have lost readers out there due to many things, including those who left DL for LJ; not to mention those who have families of their own now and have very little time to do anything online, probably, except email and banking. Such is life; but I have been here too long to stop now, and while I may not have many readers, I think that you are all fine people and I'm honored that you continue to read me...(Worldempress, I miss your writing!)